About the Art
“Is that all you do? Paint beautiful paintings?”
One of my professors asked me that question almost 10 years ago. It has resonated with me ever since.
I think I might finally have an answer for him.
I have struggled for years to put into words why I paint, and what inspires me. Every artist statement I’ve ever written seemed shallow, only scraping at the surface of what was really going on in my mind. I love painting. I love painting with bright colours and patterns. I love the freedom of abstract art, where people can see what they want to see within my paintings. But why?
I have also struggled for years with constant fatigue, low motivation, and little self-worth, without knowing exactly why. I’ve mostly kept these struggles to myself, believing I was making a big deal out of nothing.
I feel that both of these seemingly unrelated issues have recently been resolved. My doctor and I agree: I have Depression.
For a long time I fell into the trap of thinking that I needed to get over myself, that I had nothing to be sad about. In reality I consider myself extraordinarily blessed. But there was always this niggling feeling that something was truly not right with me. There was really no denying the physiological symptoms I have been struggling with, in spite of my positive outlook and faith in Christ.
Depression lies to you. It tells you that nothing is worth caring about. It tells you that no one cares for you. It tells you that you aren’t good enough. It tells you that you’re crazy for feeling this way when there’s really nothing wrong. It’s a grey fog that muffles the small joys in life that really make life worth living. Depression isn’t about feeling sad. It’s about feeling nothing at all.
I now know why I’m always tired. Why I sometimes don’t want to paint. Why I sink into creative lows. Why some days it’s a struggle just to get off the couch. Knowing these things will help me fight these things, with a little help from my doctor and a lot of help from my faith, my family, and my friends.
I have always been inspired by small joys in life and sharing them with others. Some days they’re easier to find than others. When I do find them, I cling to them. I never want to let them go. They become brightly coloured paintings that remind me about the good days to help me through the bad ones. I do not paint the visual beauty of the moment, but rather the emotional or spiritual beauty. I paint how I feel when I feel good to brighten up the darker days when I feel nothing.
Finding the beauty of these moments keeps me motivated to go out and find more. By finding these moments and painting the joy in them, I can share them with those who are having dark days of their own.
I paint beautiful paintings to remind myself and others of the beauty of everyday life.
Meghan was born and raised in Fort Saskatchewan, Alberta, where she developed a passion for art very early in life. She studied fine arts at the University of Alberta, finding a love for large scale colour-field painting. Meghan earned her Bachelor of Fine Arts in 2007 and was married shortly after.
Moving from the university studios into a small two-bedroom apartment proved to be an interesting challenge. Meghan was forced to scale her work back dramatically, finding a new appreciation for smaller scale works and experimenting with watercolours.
Having bought a house with a large studio has given Meghan the opportunity to take what she learned through her smaller scale works and apply it to the larger scale she loves. Meghan still lives in Fort Saskatchewan and stays at home full-time to raise her two children and continue her studio practice. Any spare time Meghan finds is devoted to promoting the arts within her community.